All these years later, I am still crushed. How does your whole life walk out of a kitchen door never to return? It has been hard for me but, I am here living my life. Where are you sweet rustess? Are you living yours? So much has happened in these long years gone by to much to tell you if I saw you. I think if I did I would remain silent. My heart and soul will hold you forever. I wonder if I ever enter your mind? If I do what do you see? I imagine something I didn't and never will because you chose not to tell me I wonder why? I am at a good place now It took years still you are with me. I am in your state and you are in mine how sweet it is. For now I write these words to the pages.